I swear

But I swear. Watching you throw your head back and laugh was the highlight of my day. You entrance me with everything you do. Your being is so hypnotic. Every time, I end up back where I came from. Back to you. I loved watching you laugh as you sped away. I'm not sure if you were laughing at what I did or at what Jake said, but I remember so clearly how you reacted. Your right arm flew up and you head went back, so amused and laughter splitting your lips.

I drove your truck today. When I got in, my feet didn't even reach the gas pedal and I had to move the seat up about a foot. When I wore your sweatshirt today, it came around my thighs like a dress and your sweats went past my toes, like pants and socks all in one. I looked like an overgrown marshmellow. But still, when you saw me wearing your clothes, a smile slide over your mouth and pride and gentleness filled your eyes.

As I stood in front of you, you placed your crossed arms across my shoulders and brushed the back of my neck with your fingertips. I stood there with your cheek almost touching mine, not knowing how to react. Today you touched my waist multiple times, trying to guide me somewhere. Today you touched my knee while sitting in the pew. Today you kept looking at me like every girl wants to be looked at. 

I'm not sure if you mean it, but I swear. Watching you throw your head back and laugh was the highlight of my day.